Doing things changes things

進了間大廟，當起了小和尚
兩個小時的meeting，
讓我感覺會是很痛苦的一年修行 = =

適應新環境，總是最痛苦的。
幸好上至老師，下到學長姐、同學，人"好像"都還不錯。

想再多都沒有用，頭都濕了，
就只能洗下去了

開始想吼叫了= =

可能研究所真的太多了!?
居然就給我拿到了第一名。(不過競爭者只有十名.......。)
上一個第一名不知道是N年前的事情了!(小學吧 我想)

但是卻沒有太大的感覺
因為內心並沒有真的想要這個
唉~
真不知道自己應該要追求什麼，
好迷網喔~"~



但我還是會去報到的。
只能走一步算一步了。
我的人生阿~~
就跟我的體重一樣呈現失控狀態。

低調的口試一日遊

可能外加保險之海生所報到行
希望別被電爆才行= =

BTW,可以不用上班的感覺 真好
雖然這是付出三節代課費換來的，但還是感覺很好 =W=


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口試，其實跟陌生人聊天沒有很大的負擔
但是，她們的擔心其實也點醒了我一些事情。
也不禁讓自己去思考了自己做的決定......。

或許天真，目前還是先照原計畫執行吧...我想。

傍晚，還是到海生所走走。
報到資料其實準備好了，但是並沒有很大動力走進所辦。
因為早上不是才跟高醫的教授們說想要念自己喜歡的東西嗎?
即使不知道高醫要不要我，但我應該會把中山的機會讓給更需要的人吧
雖然系館旁邊的沙灘很漂亮、每天看海的日子應該還不錯......



明天的新生座談，再會拉~~

6/25 6/26
這意想不到的漫長旅程，終於要走到交叉口了。
不知道會是結束，還是另一段更漫長的旅程?

終究
決定要面對現實了。
不論結果如何，都必須要去接受。因為不會有下一次了。

突然覺得自己還真是固執阿......
好像真的有樣獅子座的本質出現，
該是我的就是我的!!!
(雖然好像常失敗，但依舊要努力向著我的目標前進阿!!!)

上了火車才發現忘記帶准考證~"~
我一向都會好好檢查的阿......

只得先花個150換了四張快拍的大頭照
明天好去補發

應該......會給我補發吧！？

更神奇的是，我不怎麼緊張ㄟ.....好像放鬆過頭了。
如果都沒有考上就糗大了！！

今天聽廣播聽到一句以前應該有聽過，很喜歡的話，記錄一下：
人生最冒險的事 就是不去冒險

再去看一下考古題吧！

取得第一張入場卷的機率

現在才有一點緊張
我都不知道自己怎麼了，
怎麼可以麻痺成這樣?
是因為習得無助感使然?

總之
0228 雄中考中山碩班
0305 高醫考高醫碩班

有就好了，哪一間都可以拉><

開始挑戰起研究所的簡答題。

發現整個是大陣仗
每一題都要花上我不少時間去整理出勉強像樣的解答。

然後，發現，
自己這幾年怎麼好像沒有讀書的感覺= =
沒有辦法從腦袋把完整的知識重新組合

難怪考試都考不好
還有十四天就要考試了

媽阿= =
有加速器可以開嗎?

也希望這次準備考試可以好好複習一下
這次先成功，六月底再創新氣象

開始展開撒錢大作戰二部曲

(首部曲 就是貴松松的報名費)

連兩週下高雄，
本週是去探索義大校園
下週是去，已經熟透但是依舊沒辦法辦入學手續的高醫

被小鬼摧殘了一整年，
好像只能靠"實力"了........
我有嘛?

塞滿了大便，裝不進其他東西了啦==

連想要寫網誌都不知道要寫些什麼
昨天去雲科吹樂器，也吹的亂七八糟
拍子也亂算，不知道自己在晡什麼

我不想腦袋裝大便拉
我想要裝英文、生物跟有機化學!!!!!!

但不是度假用的，完全沒有喜悅~"~

從第一次下高雄住飯店
到接下來的漢娜家
每年的六月，總是有著固定的高雄行
帶著戒慎恐懼的心踏進那考場，又總是以慘不忍睹的成績單做為暑假的最深回憶

今年，又沒有地方可以借我窩了
只能認命的先打了電話，訂好了6月25日的房


時間又迫在眼前了，可是我卻總沒有那種破釜成舟的衝勁
才讓自己一直在這裡無限輪迴......

當然，這幾年間，也不全然是白費
三年的馴獸師課程，著實讓我成長許多
也找到了重新拿起樂器的地方
認識了好多志同道合的好朋友
也開始想要讓自己有點不太一樣

所以，我想要鼓起勇氣，讓自己跳入另一個磨練
不知道要付出多少代價
但親愛的老天爺，至少讓我有各機會去嘗一嘗那酸甜苦辣吧!

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話說昨天夢到補習班主任寫了一張紙
內容就是擔心我跟小白這樣的讀書方式 會不會很危險
又拿出了滿滿兩面的英文補充講義，要我馬上讀懂....

好久沒夢到這種了，果然考試快到了= =

感謝戰友小白友情提供
互為勉勵~

我是與你永相左右的伴侶
我是你最好的幫手或是你最沉重的負擔
我可以推促你勇往直前 或是引你走向失敗
我完完全全聽命於你
當你把事情做了一半 你只管放心交給我
我會以最快的速度正確無誤的把它做好
我很聽話 你只管相信我
告訴我你希望事情怎麼做
我一定有樣學樣自動自發將它完成
我是所有偉人的忠僕 也是一切失敗的根源
對那些成功的人來說 我是功臣
對那些失敗的人來說 我是罪魁禍首
你可以用我賺錢 或是受我影響步上毀滅
這對我來說 毫無差別
善用我 抓牢我
我可以為你贏得全世界
如果你放縱我 我會毀了你
我到底是誰?
我的名字叫<習慣>
~~機會.天命.運氣 都阻攔不了 一顆堅定不移的心~~~

收到全民英檢中高級初試的成績單

其實不想拆
因為那天真的睡得亂七八糟，寫完整各心情差到爆
根本不期待會有好成績

結果!
居然給我低空飛過了~~
媽阿 這真是太神奇了!
就剛剛好比及格標準給他多了一分
還真是名副其實的吊車尾

看來，要認真的準備一下口說跟寫作了
真的很意料之外耶
不過很高興啦
雖然這是一個完全沒有實質價值，單純考爽的考試
但 真的還蠻爽的 哈哈


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話說回來，
我好像比較適合這種pass/failure的考試
要跟人家爭排名，怎麼都搶不到咧???????
一定是我太仁慈了.......
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Accept nothing at face value
and get in the habit of thinking unconventionally.
Work hard,work smart and with a bit of luck,
serendipity will play its part.
Peter Doheety

對所有事情都要抱持懷疑的態度
養成不以常規思考的習慣
勤奮工作
但要講求方法
只要再加上一點好運
自然就會有出乎意外的重大發現
杜厄提 1996年諾貝爾生醫獎得主

就是這一天
將決定我未來的去向
還有四個月
希望一切努力會有收穫

雖然我依舊不知道自己的選擇
會不會帶來幸福
但是我知道
若我一直被侷限在這裡
我是不會快樂的

所以別想這麼多了
等考上了 再說吧!
筆試要衝高分
然後再少幾斤肉
粉有氣質的去面試
等著榜上有名!
go! go!

圖書館真是好物!
今日雖尚未翻開書讀
先看了三本最新的期刊: Newsweek,Science and RIBA(應該是建築類的)
當然只有看了標題
不過COPY了一份Newsweek跟壓力有關的文章 希望有空可以看完
至於Science真的只看得懂標題 太....難了
不過最近最夯的就是慶祝達爾文生日囉~
大部分的科學雜誌都在談演化阿!
會看建築雜誌 則是因為這期的標題是"Health and happiness"

以下節錄一篇 當作作文的參考囉
(這篇有提到Freiburg!被稱為solar nexus)

Health building syndrome(我整個被這個標題深深吸引住了!)

Utopian idealism, or plain common sense? For centries, mankind has tried to deliver health and happiness through a combination of planned communities and social welfare initiatives...... It is not only possible to design places that are actively good for us, but the need to do so is now more urgent than ever.

A healthy environment and a healthy community are vital for the health, well-being and happiness of the individual. Neuroscience emphasises the importance of the very early years of childhood for the development of well-adjusted individuals with a predisposition towards health and well-being. The young child requires a close and stable relationship with the family, the community and the natural environment. A continuing close association with the natural environment enhances the health and well-being of individauls. It is also clear that a physically active lifestyle which such an environment promotes is conductive to health and well-being. It would seem that cities supporting such a lifestyle should be structured so that every home is close to open countryside, that is, within comfortable walking distance of it.

後面還很多  不過這樣就夠了
前面還不錯 但是後面有鬼打牆的感覺
讓我深深懷疑 是美國人寫的嗎? 實在太饒舌了

是在雲科大圖書館的廁所裡看到的

Pardon is the most glorious revenge.

寬恕是最大的報復

至少能在我心情很不好的時候
這麼想能好過一些
是讓我很有感觸的一句話

p.s. 為什麼是用pardon阿? 一般的寬恕不是用forgive?

太久沒練習了...整個爛掉了...一直在鬼打牆   誰來救我的"菜"英文~

   Kaohsiung Medical University has been carrying out All Enblish Medical Teaching Program for more than one year. Needless to say, there have been different reflections and opinions among the students. As a medical prospective student, do you agree or disagree with such a program? Write a composition of about 200 words giving specific reasons and examples to support your opinion.

  As far as I am concerned, I do agree with the program and be willing to participate in the training. Definitely, there may be some negtive feedbacks from teachers or students; however, I believe that there are far more advantages. My arguments for this point are listed as follows.

   First at all, English is the most common and universal language in the world. For many college students, reading the English-version text book is inevitable and necessary. As a result, we can have the ability in reading, even writing in English, but have difficulty to express ourselves in the right way and in time. I think this program can offer students many chances to enhance their English ability when studying medicine. 

   Second, if studnets are familiar with using English, they will feel easy when they search for the latest researches or data from the Internet. They don't waste time waiting someone to traslate the articles, and don't miss some important information. Also, it will also useful if the future doctors do experiments with abroad experts. Effective communicating will save much time and money!

   Third, after students completing the program, they can have the more chances to practice medicine in other English countries. The students will be more competitive than other medical students in Taiwan because of the specific training.

   In a word, the All English Medical Teaching Program is deserved to be carried out. It is of great worth.  

  

This semester is apporching to the end, and another will be starting soon. What I did and got during this year? It seems that more bad things happened than good ones occured. Becuase of my characteristic,I encoutered many difficulties in my teaching profession,and I had no choice but deal with each problem. Maybe this is the very test that God wants to make me stronger.

Also I finished my another "real" test in Kaohuang yesterday. I really am not wiiling to count the times that I have taken this entrance exam. Once again, I still have no confidence to face the result. Will I fail again? Due to my "Learned Helplessness," I tend to prepare to recept my failure one more time. Maybe it would make me fell better.

"What will my future be? I Wonder." This is the lyric in "the Sound of Music". Singing the song on the way to the captain's house, Maria wonders about her unknown world. This is also what I think in my mind.
Why can't Ido what I want?
Is this what we call "the Life?"

Whatever how many difficulties I meet, I am convinced that I can deal with them and will become stronger from every challenges.

I just know I can. I am approaching to my goal side by side.

Yesterday was my first day to TOEFL class.
It was a small class and there were about ten students in it.
Our teacher is an assistant professor in 環球學院.
He tried to make a whole-English environment.
To be truth, I did enjoy it.

The professor Chen told us how to improve our writing ability--starting with free writing.

He said the most important thing in speaking and writing is "What do you want to say?" not "How do you want to say." Just dot it!

I am glad to have the class, though I have to pay two thousand and eight hundred dollars for it
!