Doing things changes things

This semester is apporching to the end, and another will be starting soon. What I did and got during this year? It seems that more bad things happened than good ones occured. Becuase of my characteristic,I encoutered many difficulties in my teaching profession,and I had no choice but deal with each problem. Maybe this is the very test that God wants to make me stronger.

Also I finished my another "real" test in Kaohuang yesterday. I really am not wiiling to count the times that I have taken this entrance exam. Once again, I still have no confidence to face the result. Will I fail again? Due to my "Learned Helplessness," I tend to prepare to recept my failure one more time. Maybe it would make me fell better.

"What will my future be? I Wonder." This is the lyric in "the Sound of Music". Singing the song on the way to the captain's house, Maria wonders about her unknown world. This is also what I think in my mind.
Why can't Ido what I want?
Is this what we call "the Life?"